Desperate Desperation

This was written way back when I was so down and drained from my past relationship... The desperate call for help, the desperate need to free myself and the desperate signal for trust. I felt that that period was a time of hallucination and betrayal. I am not holding on to the past, but merely recalling how stupid I was.

Desperate Desperation

All they had gone.
All they had been blown away into pieces.
And I had been left in the middle of wildness alone.

The word like "Maybe tomorrow..." is already wasted.
Ok, I'll mimic suicide.
Maybe I'll feel easy?

The hand that finally I caught in the deep despair is a piece of memory
Of a precious person who had worn me out and gone.
Though I had found a tiny hope through pain.
That's decayed now.

Don't you like "DREAMS come true someday"?
Hypocrism should die who mentions HOPE easily.
What can I look for here where nothing exists but LONLINESS?
What can I look for here where nothing exists but DESPAIR?

Nobody, nothing, nothing...
The pain is ringing.
I can't find out what should I do alive.
Now, all I can do now is just walk to nowhere.
Under the sky of hallucination.

Do I Look as if I Care?

Friends of mine, you should know who I am. "Do I look as if I care?" is a favourite phrase of mine because I am not interested in a lot of things happening around me. Not that I am lazy, just that I am not attentive to details. Things that don't have much impact in my life, I choose not to register them.

Will update more on this blog when I have the time.